Back to Writing

There was a day that writing on a blog and allowing others to read it was my normal. It was just a few writings, but the hurdle of vulnerability had been jumped over. Years have passed since writing a book one day seemed possible. The idea that someone would want to read my words seems so faint and distant in comparrison to the louder shouting words that I use my words to control or to defend myself and how right I am. I've had the prodding repeatedly to write again. To write the book i started 6 years ago, the one page i wrote. Outside of God directly prodding me, my older son repeatedly reminding me to write in tangible ways. It's unexpected, but so very appreciated. Its an answer to God's faithfulness. It's an answer to God leading me back to a call I laid down, one that I can only do with Him being the author of my life. So many years of delay, disappointment, recovery from spiritual trauma...and so many years of discovering foundational lies i believed about my life that created a distance between me and love. I've been on a years long journey of living the book I've been called to write. I've been discovering the priciples God wants me to share. And I've been in a world that humbles me day in and out about my need for my Savior Jesus, His word and His presence. But here I am, again writing a vulnerable blog, preperation for the journey ahead to write this book. When this book will be written I don't know, but I'm one step closer now that I have written this blog. I'm stepping out in obedience to the leading of Holy Spirit one atep at a time, and this is all He has asked of me.